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Thursday, May 04, 2006, 04:43

Tragic Kingdom

Last night I was feeling nostalgic. I wanted to feel at "home" again. There wasn't one album or even a definitive song I could think of that would send me back there either. I tried so hard to think of something, anything. Nothing came to me. I even tried to arrange my songs in the order they were first created/downloaded. Still nothing. I wonder if I have came so far from my roots in music, there is no way back "home".

I guess what I mean is that I've listen to so much music, there is no specific song that can take me back. No one song sticks out. Now that I'm writing about this, I can think of a few a guess, but randomly thinking about this there's no one song that instantly pops into my head. I guess what I'm trying to get at here is that I don't think I've thought of who I am enough.

I bet no one thought I was going there. But I feel I should have a song. A song to send me back to the house of my childhood and make me feel like I'm back in middle school. I don't know if it's true but I feel everyone has a somewhat clear idea of who they are. As music being a big part of our lives, I feel like there's one song that could sum this up or at least your childhood. Some genre, album, or song that could explain you. Whether the lyrics or melody really explain anything who you are is irrelevant. It's what the individual who defines this for themselves. Maybe I'm just talking out of my ass.

Whether or not I should or should not have a self identifying song/album/genre of music is not really the point of all of this. What I'm really trying to get at after thinking about this is I want to think that I have a goal in life. That I've had a grasp on who I am for at least a majority of my life. The sad reality is, I don't think I have.

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Lucy, Thursday, May 04, 2006, 16:02

I have come to realize that the only nostalgia associated with music is either manufactured or comes from pure repetition. The music that reminds me of being a kid is the stuff my Dad would play on the weekends, every weekend. I have started to make play lists for each of my college years. Its crazy how they bring you back to certain rooms and roommates. But its only because it’s the stuff you played 24/7 and haven’t listened to since. As much as I love discovering music for the first time, I almost like rediscovering it better, after some time off from it. I say almost because you can’t completely go back, you are different now, you are more. And all the things you valued then now have different meanings. It reminds you that things are ever changing. Including you. To “know” who you are at this moment is awesome because it shows you so much about the world you have created around you. But its important to remember that it is only temporary, and soon, from the experiences of today and tomorrow you will change and have a new, more complete person to evaluate.

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reina, Thursday, April 24, 2008, 23:16

Remember when Lela used to play that Hero song by Mariah Carrie? All I can think of when I hear that is back when I shared a room with her and how she listened to it alllll the time. That and gangsta's paradise. Both of those remind me of when we were all living in the house together. It's weird to think about the fact that we'll all never be under one roof again. And even if we are, how many more times? Once for Christmas? Twice? Three times? I dunno. I miss it. I miss being little and running around not knowing anything. Thinking that we were all going to live together forever. I'm going to graduate from high school in a couple weeks and then I'm gone too! Crazy. I want to visit a lot and see Wren grow up. So then he won't have to miss me ever because I'll always have been gone but there at the same time. Stable, almost. I dunno.

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